Hi everyone! I seem to have fallen off the face of the earth again. Sorry about that.
A quick update on what’s going on. It’s nothing major, just a big depression swing followed up by near constant flare ups of fibromyalgia (at least that’s what we think it is – I have yet to find a doctor who will actually do anything to treat it). It’s made sticking to anything outside of necessities really difficult as my ability to concentrate isn’t the best right now.
I knew the reading slump was coming, partly due to the concentration thing and partly because of the fact that I was trying to do too much. I was trying so hard to catch up to my GoodReads goal, since I had fallen so far behind, that reading started taking up too much time. It became a chore instead of something to be enjoyed, and that’s definitely not what I wanted. I never should have set this goal so high, but since I’ve seen others do it easily, I figured I could do it too. Lesson learned.
(It doesn’t help that I can’t do audio books, like at all. I can’t keep up with the story that way. I’ve tried. My mind wanders too much and then I have to rewind and go back to see what I’ve missed. It would be nice if I could because then I could technically “read” while doing other things. Oh well.)
I don’t know how much I will be blogging, although I desperately want to get back to it. I miss it a lot. My work schedule will be changing dramatically, as my other small side gig is ending (rather abruptly too) and I am switching from part-time to full-time at my other job. It’s already going into the busy season there – I work at a bakery and the holidays are crazy. Plus, we have a fundraising program which a lot of schools and churches use to raise money for their programs, and that is always busiest in the fall, particularly November. I love my job and my co-workers, which is a huge help, but it’s still a lot of work and the stress does build up.
Put all of THAT together with the holidays coming up and just being a very difficult time for me emotionally anyway, and it’s going to be a rough few months. Somedays I feel optimistic that I can get through it (today is one of those days), but other days seem nearly impossible, staring into an endless dark tunnel. I’m hoping that those days will become fewer and farther between, but October was rough and I worry that November and December might get even harder. We’ll see.
I usually try to keep things upbeat and lighthearted here on the blog, but I just needed a space to let out what I’ve been feeling and try to compartmentalize my thoughts. Hope y’all don’t mind too much. The fangirling about books will start up again soon. I genuinely appreciate any of you who has followed my posts or commented on any my ramblings here. You brighten up my day, which is why I want to get back to this so badly. I’m just trying to take things one day at a time right now and see where I end up.
Categories: Drabbles
Life With No Plot 
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