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Exciting News!!!

So once again, I have disappeared from my blog. Life has been super busy as of late – my job has especially been kicking my butt. But none of that matters right now, because I have a big, exciting announcement!

About a month ago, I finally plucked up the courage to do something that I’ve been wanting to do for years and years – I auditioned for a show at our local theater. Twin City Stage is putting on a production of the musical Into the Woods, which has been one of my favorite shows ever since I was in high school. It’s a fun story, a fractured fairy tale at its finest, with amazing music by Stephen Sondheim. Lots of stories melting together, including Cinderella, Rapunzel, Little Red Riding Hood, Jack and the Beanstalk, and others. I was really happy to see it being done locally, whether or not I was a part of it, but I wanted to be part of it so bad!

Due to the director’s schedule, they didn’t have the call back auditions until last week. I knew I got a call back and was happy to have passed the first round of auditions, but I found out late last week that I got a part in the show! Or, to be precise, I got three parts in the show – three small roles that are minor, but memorable. I will be playing Cinderella’s mother (sort of the fairy godmother of this story), Little Red Riding Hood’s granny (she’s a hoot!), and the angry woman giant out to get revenge on Jack for killing her husband.

At first they said I was being considered for Cinderella, which surprised me to no end, but to be honest, I’m glad I didn’t get a big part. This will let me get some experience on stage without being too nervous. I will have one small singing solo and several lines, both onstage and off (the giant is usually never seen, just a thundering voice coming from off stage), plus bits to sing with the ensemble. I can’t wait for rehearsals to start!!

Incidentally, there was a really good video of the original Broadway production, including the wonderful Bernadette Peters. It’s streaming on Netflix right now. 🙂

Teaser Tuesday

Teaser Tuesday for June 17th

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Teaser Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by MizB at “Should Be Reading.” Here are the rules if you want to play along:

• Grab your current read
• Open to a random page
• Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
• BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
• Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Red made the choices, and the others accepted them, even when, as it seemed to me, they were foolish beyond belief. How could a man who acted so unpredictably, who made such erratic decisions, be their leader?

– Daughter of the Forest by Juliet Marillier

This has been a good book so far. There’s something about Marillier’s writing that is very soothing, very comforting to read, even when she’s describing terrible things happening. Definitely continuing with this series, at least the first trilogy. Maybe the second one, if I have time.

Drabbles

A Not-So-Good Reason for Not-So-Good Blogging

For people who follow my blog (and there are a surprising number of you who do so – that’s still strange to me), you might have noticed that I haven’t been blogging nearly as much as I used to. Back in the day, I would blog a fair amount. I had a schedule. I had goals. I had special daily posts. I had a ton of reading and writing challenges that I blogged about with enthusiasm. I was borderline obsessive about this thing.

And then it happened.

Depression hit.

Big time.

I don’t usually talk much about my personal life here because it’s, well, personal. And, truthfully, it’s no one else’s business. Not that there’s anything to hide, but this blog isn’t the place for it. Besides that, depression is a really touchy topic for many people. It’s hard to diagnose. It’s still a stigma. It’s different for everyone. My depression manifests itself differently that other people’s might. And, to be completely honest, I didn’t want to talk about something when it was very possible that I would be judged. It was easier to just disappear.

I’ve decided that I don’t want to disappear, and don’t want to not talk about it. If anyone judges anyone who suffers from depression, or any other issues – whether physical, mental, or otherwise – that’s their problem. Not mine.

I was first officially diagnosed with clinical depression, anxiety and social disorders when I was a senior in high school. I’ve been on numerous medications, although currently I’m not taking anything, mostly because I had really bad side effects from the last one I took. I’ve been wondering if I should go back on something, but I also get stubborn. I buy into society’s idea that I should be able to pull myself out of this. It’s all in my head, right? Well, in a way, yes it is. But that doesn’t make it any less difficult to deal with.

The thing is, most people around me wouldn’t notice that anything is wrong. I go to work, do my job, come home, cook dinner, listen to the children argue, muck around on the computer for a while, then go to bed. None of my co-workers would guess that anything is going on – I’m all smiles and business when I’m there. My family has a better chance of seeing my problems, but they also have their own concerns and as long as I don’t do anything too out of the ordinary, they usually don’t see anything wrong. I’ve become very good at hiding this because, again, I don’t want people looking at me and seeing someone who has difficulty just getting through the day.

Side note, but this is why I completely understand people who get addicted to video games. Whenever I sink down into depression, I become almost obsessed with gaming. As Felicia Day once said, “It is so much easier measuring life in experience points!” Video games provided quick, easy feelings of accomplishment that I could get with minimal effort. It was perfect!

Things are getting a bit better, slowly. I’m hoping that as things in my head start clearing up, my blogging will also improve. I’ve already seen some improvements in my day job – I’m much less stressed there, whether because things at work are changing or I’m just handling them better. I’m forcing myself to do more around the house – spending time with my family, cleaning every once in a while. Depression is always there, just off stage, waiting to rush in at the first signs of weakness. But for the moment, I am keeping it at bay.

Sorry if this post is a bit rambling, but it’s been something I’ve wanted to get off my chest for a while now.

WWW Wednesday

WWW Wednesday for June 22th

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WWW Wednesday is a weekly feature hosted by the lovely MizB over at “Should Be Reading.” Three questions, three answers. Go!

What are you currently reading?

I just started reading Daughter of the Forest by Juliet Marillier, book one of the Sevenwaters series. This has been on my TBR for a long time and it’s been a while since I’ve read a straight up epic fantasy. I’ve been spending my time in mostly urban fantasy stories as of late. Time to get back to my roots!

What did you recently finish reading?

Just finished City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare, the sixth and final book in the Mortal Instruments series. Holy smokes. This one is going to take a while to process.

What do you think you’ll read next?

If I keep with my current trend of trying to finish series, then I should read the next book in the Sevenwaters series. I’m not sure exactly how many books there are in this one – Goodreads lists six books, but I keep hearing people talk about this as a trilogy. It actually looks like they might be stand alone books set in the same world, only loosely connected by families and location. In any case, I will probably try to read all six, unless this first book is a total dud. The next book is called Son of the Shadows, and that would be what I read next.

There are my answers for this week! Please leave your WWW posts in comments!

Teaser Tuesday

Teaser Tuesday for June 10th

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Teaser Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by MizB at “Should Be Reading.” Here are the rules if you want to play along:

• Grab your current read
• Open to a random page
• Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
• BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
• Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Here’s my teaser for the week, taken from a book that I am so excited about!

“We will stand bravely with you!” Malcolm announced. Catarina looked darkly at him, and he quailed. “Well, we will stand bravely near you. Or at least within earshot.”

– City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare

This is the final book in the Mortal Instruments series and I am both excited to see how it ends and sad to see it go. It’s been a good ride. And at least there will be more Shadowhunter series down the road. Something to look forward to!

Please leave your teasers in comments!